Grieving is feeling alone

“Death is life’s great leveler. No one is untouched by it. Not only does this mean we will all eventually die, it also means we will all eventually be touched and broken by the deaths of those we love. Grief is such a profound experience.” Bill Crowder/The Daily Bread

Once again, I am facing another sorrowful days of grieving. My friend of many years passed away. Death seems getting closer and closer reaching to the point of, who’s next? My true friends are few and far between and they’re getting smaller in numbers as years have gone by. People I’ve met in my life who I have crossed path with and closed relatives are dwindling in numbers as they’ve breathe their last breath.

The recent death of my friend had taken out a suppressed feeling riddled with thoughts of my own mortality. She was part of decades of a busy world of gainful employment and fun memories that would come with being around the same people each and every year. Come to reminisce my connection with her, I realized she was part of my small wedding entourage, parties I’ve attended and work-related gatherings and personal ones. She was always a friend who would make a special occasion a happy memory. She was on my few videos and albums of pictures of years gone by! Then we became text buddies when we relocated to another state. She surely has the brag rights to say she has the greatest numbers of being present in my lifetime, which she told her husband last night I spoke with him.. The saying of “friends come and go in life”, does not apply to her. Even at the closer end of her life, I’ve heard from her. She actually the one who would first connect when she had not heard from me. What a friend I had with her! Amazing that it’s always when a person’s life has ended that we look back at the impacts of every people in our lives. She has taken the most attendance! Wow, I’ve just come to realize it. Even my own relatives cannot beat that.

I will miss her. Her down to earth demeanor, her funny antics, her “trying hard” karaoke singing, her inner opinions of injustices of the world and; her spiritual knowledge about God and His Word are mine to remember. Goodbye my dearest friend, I have never met someone that has her character of a good, old fashioned but life loving as she was. I’m gonna see you at the pearly gates of heaven. You’re the very first one of the people I know personally that I’m pretty sure I will see in heaven. I love you my friend! ❤

I may have cried buckets of tears as days go by and read back your text messages and it’s all worth it!